Greetings Mephibosheth:

I hope that you are prospering. This email is something that has been on my heart.

A little while back, you told me that you had had time to consider the nature of our relationship. I think that you had justly concluded that I was not hearing everything. There was a basic, vital, lack on my part. (I was not right with God). As a result, I could not seek Him with my whole heart. Biblical scholarship does not work with someone who halfheartedly seeks God.) I don't know if you knew where my problem lay, but it marked the end of our Biblical scholarship correspondence. I think you were just in your reaction. I am sorry that my problem affected you.

Today, God has allowed us to speak some more. I am here, by God's grace, trying to go forward 100% with Him. I just want to be and remain right with God. Seeking those things that are perfect. God tells us to be perfect. Perfection is far more than just walking away from your sins. Scriptures says there is grace to be without blame, spotless, perfect in every area of our lives. The Bible says there is a more perfect way. Way is singular, not plural. There may be many good things someone can do-- but there is only one that God has for His children at any point in their life. Biblical scholarship I believe is/ or leads to that more perfect way. I don't see how anyone who is truly moving on to perfection would or could ignore Biblical scholarship and its implications for modern man, regaining manhood, womanhood, serving God and others through work and doing our own business, etc.

I bring all this up for your information so you can decide what to do with regards to further conversations. I want you to know where I stand if you write to me. The time is too short to have me waste your time. You may chose to write to me or if you are led not to, either way. You wrote to me that I should fly in my area, and you will fly in yours, but I truly do not see how a man that is right with God could serve Him outside of the realm of what you have called Biblical scholarship. It is just an extension and application of the scriptures to everything.

I know these are things you have spoken to me about for a long time. I had to come to serve the Lord 100% to be able to perform them wholeheartedly though. Recently, I've looking up different plants I can eat around my house. It is exciting for me now. God created me to be a man. Wow! What a thought. I would never on my own have considered that I could or should have mastery over the things that God has given to me, but God has called me to step into this amazing thing, my manhood, not because I am great, but because He is great. It is real. People are supposed to look at a real man and want to know the God who made him. The same with a real woman.

If God allows me to live long enough, I am tremendously excited about the applications of Biblical Scholarship in marriage. What a way to lead about a wife and family! How marvelous! If that is not His plan for me, then He has already blessed *beyond* anything I could imagine, though it is never time for me to stop moving onward.

I know I should have been speaking many of these things a while back. This is where I stand now. I hope these things are refreshing to your soul. If they are not words that are appropriate for this time, let me know if you are free to do so. I don't want to be over here speaking if it doesn't refresh you.

God bless you.

VigilantWatchman