**I have hope now in life and in death.

When our souls are right, we have no real fear for whether in life or in death, we find ourselves with our Lord. That day when that piece of turkey was stuck in my windpipe, I was choking. I could not get it out, but I was not afraid nor was I panicking. It was not an unpleasant experience. I did not ask anyone's help nor did I consider having someone call 911. My husband asked me if I was choking and I nodded yes. The Lord allowed me to cough up the turkey somehow, but I came out of the experience with a powerful testimony that has made a lasting impression on me. I understood that dying is just one more thing that the Lord and I are going to do together. He is with me all day and all through the night and when that final moment comes we will still be together as we always are.

I read your words of testimony and the importance of purity in childhood. I read what you had to say about total surrender and yielding our bodies and souls to God, our great benefactor and redeemer. I heard what you said about my little one's angels that behold the face of our Father in heaven. God himself let me know to tread carefully with her. He is very concerned about the children of his people and that they be treated properly. God did bless you in allowing you to experience the joy of knowing a separation from the world. And he blessed me by letting me read and believe Chick tracts about how to get eternal life. He also allowed me to get my hands on a little green Bible thereby sealing in my mind and heart that the God of the Bible was the true and the living God. No other god ever had a chance in my mind, heart, and affections. The Lord reached me early. The people that he used to provide the tracts and Bible may have no idea that they entered my hands, but God knows and will reward them.

Thank you for the information about the lights, I perceive that it was especially for me. I've felt that there was something bothersome about me falling to sleep with the lights on. My daughter and I discussed this information that you sent and it is my goal to get us on track. We feel tired. I go to bed late--still trying to read--and then get up early. My daughter goes to bed as late as she can and her father often wants to see her after he gets in which can be rather late. This irregularity is not good. I must make a commitment to make sure that my daughter is prepared for bed and in bed at an early hour.

I am growing tired now. I will go for now. It is good to know that you are doing well.

Mephibosheth